What A Wretched Man I Am

Well it has been less than 24 hours since I started this blog and there is a not so shocking development, I committed the same sin that I did last night. Once again I know for a fact that I have the forgiveness of God and I am so thankful for that, but at the same time I know that if I were Him I would be so fed up with me right now. It is at a point where promising to to stop must just make the devil chuckle. I know that God does not allow us to be tempted beyond what we can handle with Him guiding us. This temptation is not one that should own my life like it does, but the fact I have to admit is that it does own me. But I am reminded of a John Piper video that I have seen many times while going through this struggle. He talks about how the battle we are in is not against satan, its not against the devil. The battle that we are in as Christians is a battle against sin. There is a quote in the video that really strikes home me for every single time I watch this video, "nobody goes to hell because of satan, the only reason we go to hell is sin. Much more important than fighting satan is fighting sin." I do know though that when I do something to take a step toward God, satan will be right there to try to knock me back. Too often I give satan the idea that he can control me, that he has some sort of power over my life. In reality he has no power over me what so ever too often, and my life is a shining example of this, I blame satan for my mis steps and my failures. I look up to God and utter the oh so famous words, "the devil made me do it." The sad part about this post is that I know tonight will not be the last time I utter those words to God. Those six words that just make everything all better because the blame has been shifted out of my hands. What a wretched man I am.